we watched this today..
actually really got nothing to do.
went to sch to take the gd progress award cheque.
its the best b'day present ever!
anyway, im hapi to spend every moment wif azan.
i love u dear..
i've been spending most of the wkends wif buk n sara..
n its great to spend the time wif them.
even its after work, they dun mind spending the time wif me.
thanks a million guys..
i will miss u both.
futhermore, you, sara going to start work in nuh soon, this coming mon.
arrgh!
so faST!
anyway,
thx again for all the happy moments..
n to yantie too!
buk wrote smthing sweet for me on his blog.
but y one of the name appeared?
i just dun like her!
ok,here it is..
1.gonna miss my frens..girlfrens tht i actualli nvr bond like this before..saniah n sara have reali make an impact in my 2 yrs life in nursing..
2.sara and saniah..im gonna miss u guys..son we're gona part..but tht doesnt mean im gona forget u guys..we'll still keep in contact..
3.HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANIAH!!!
n this is from sara:
1.anyways to my girlfriend,Saniah binte Abdul Jalil.Happy 20th birthday.i love you babe.we'll have a post-birthday celebration ok?
2.anw, met up with buk and saniah.now its just down to the three of us laa.honestly, i was fucking disappointed but theres nothing i can do.though 3 of us were very tired but we still cntinue walking ard.somehow, i feel so much for them.and i know that i'm gonna miss saniah's irritating lame anticsand im gonna miss for the way he treat us.so as i was abt to sleep last night.i received a msg from saniah.it was a short one.but it really touch my heart.and it really makes my day.
3.tell me, how can you not smile after you read this msg.furthermore, you had a very tiring at work .duncha feel that your friendship is so appreciated.haha.
..................................
so sweet rite..
how can i resist from missing both of them..
it doesn't matter how long u noe each other,
but how often u r always there for ur fren..
so sori guys im not going for prom tmr..
enjoy ur day ok!
|6:32 AM|
HAPI BIRTHDAY TO ME..
but i felt so sad today.
y must the last day happened on my b'day.
its the last day of attachment.
i brokedown when iskandar started to hug everybody.
all of us cried.
its so hard for me to leave them.
n im still sad when i tink of it.
we r so close,
like one big family.
i dun want to be apart from them.
its so hard to get ward mates like them.
united, always give in to each other n very helpful.
i'll miss every each of them.
they r so special to me..
i love u guys..
pls keep in touch..
fiezah
iskandar
farhanah
ain
kak nadiyah
saraswathi
navin
liyana
aishah
miri
peiying
dini
kenneth
zhi yuan
anyway, its hard for me to leave the patients in imh.
furthermore we r the 1st grp of students to go to ward 60.
the patients r great.
feel sad for them..
i received bodyshop perfume from my ward mates.
thnks people.
u guys always make me smile.
full of surprises.
i'll always remember the fun n laughter we had together especially in imh.
everyday without fail, we had fun, laughing n cherish every last moments working together..
haiz..
i'll cry if i say more..
so..hapi 18th b'day to me..
haha
im in denial!
hope that i'll b the happiest person in the world by my loved ones.
hope i'll get my dream job soon.
n i hope i can make other people happy too.
thanks to all my frens for the b'day wishes..
pei ying n miri is not in these picture.
n this is actually our last yr photo taken with ms lam during the outings.
i'll miss u guys..
n i'll keep u people in my HEART!
|4:29 AM|
i knew it..
i just read.
n ya, it hurts.
i noe its her blog n she has the rights to write dat.
eventhou it may seems small n not really visible.
but the words made me sad.
i admit i made a mistake.
but at dat point of time i just need somebody to talk.
so its difficult for me to horray2 on dat day.
but its ok.
things had happened.
n even it seems like normal, i can sense the changes.
i dun mind.
i'll just swallow it.
i mean im always there for her, but if she thinks dat im no longer important in her life just bcos of dat incident then its still fine.
i dunno.
just feel sad.
but im not angry.
i'm sorry..
azan brought me to ramen 10 last saturday.
still keep in contact but we r still frens.
will update abt it again..cos...i dunno the answer yet.
attachment..
great..
my workmates are all the best people.
eventhou our lecturer always membebel n very petty.
we'r still strong.
n i luv dem alot!
n ya i just felt like putting pics..
|4:38 AM|
i miss him..
but i do not want to get back bcz people force me too.
im ok.
still surviving.
still bathe.
haha.
i dun noe y im so stubborn.
still refused to accept him.
i've my own reason actually.
but even if i regret it, it had happened.
but azan will always b on my mind..
u seems very familiar.
but where did we met?
n i've wandering..
nvm lah, hu ever u r..
nite duty..
tiring.
but FUN!
Ain, Navin n amazingly Dini made my nite duty a fun one.
we talked abt almost everything.
the secrets n gossips.
Then Navin n Dini looked pale after they did last office at 3am.
the staff were very understanding xcept for dat noisy fella.
4 of us went for break together.
how fun..!
like having party.
pringles lying arnd.
we ate bday cake in the middle of the nite.
we had so much fun.
to ain..
dun worry bout wat had happened.
everything will be just fine.
i wish i had lots of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!
ya money.
i wanna go shopping.
im so stressed.
hate attachment.
this is the part that i feel like quitting.
n im stupid if i did.
last lap already.
i dun tink i can qualify to b a nurse.
ntahlah
jadi potter lah..
i can't wait for prisonbreak..
wentworth miller.
omg..
so cute..
make me melt
so cair.
can't wait for season 2..
anw, this is embarrasing.
i semangat wish haikal hapi belated bday.
pdhal bday dia next mth..
i thot jan..
alamak..
sorilah cuzin.
haha..
|4:47 AM|
i miss updating my blog..
so many things had happened..
Azan n me..
we broke up.
2 wks already.
its not his fault.
its mine.
but he said it first.
lets break up.
i dun blame him nor i hate him.
but i just dun wanna get back.
maybe bcos i wanna have freedom.
but dats not the main reason.
but ask any couple.
for almost 5 yrs u had been together,
the feelings of bored will come.
not that i feel bored when im wif him.
but i feel suffocated.
no time for myself.
imagine i spent most of my teenage life with him.
tii now i mean lately.
but we r still v.gd frens.
just went out last sat.
n he asked for patch up for the 3rd time.
my answer?
still the same.
no.
i dun wanna get back to him bcos of sympathy or pressure.
i wanna love him like i use to.
but i cried every nite thinkin of it.
when will it end.
will i get back to him.
or will i get another guy who is as gd as him.
i dunno.
our parents dun noe bout it.
but my mum sense the difference.
she asked its been a long time azan has not call my hs.
i noe he's a gd guy.
but i've my personal reason of not gg back wif him.
its too late too regret bout it cos it has happened.
n i do not want to do it anymore unless the rite day comes.
omg..
i just feel like crying now.
me leaving him.
people said im stupid.
but how bout my feelings.
but having wonderful memories wif him,
its difficult for me to forget him in just a snap!
anw, thanks to my gf-s n haikal for their advice.
thanks to iskandar the bengkok for his advice too,
eventhou he kept asking "dah patch" whenever he see my face.
thanks to another guy fren..
he too..
like bengkok always asking me the same Qn..
susah org lelaki ni.
haha..
ok..throw away the sadness.
n guess wat la.
faizal the idiot
psychotic
crazy
stalker
came back..
omg n wat the fuck.
he came back.
i thot he's dead!
he called my hs.
n amazingly he still remember the number.
n i shouted at him once i noe its him n hang up.
he called again the day after at nite n another day my mum said a guy called asking for me..
im still wondering hu is he.
till now.
the last time he called me was the 1st spore idol final results.
n now like almost 3 years.
n he said im his gf!
since when lah dey.
i dun even noe u.
n wat u ecpect me to be a gf of a complete stranger.
self proclaimed idiot.
i hope he will stop doing all these.
coz i can't stand it.
its my first nite duty today..
can't wait..
excited.
i wonder how it will be.
must take a nap later.
i cant wait for prisonbreak this thursday.
just addicted to it.
n to my girlfrens..
i miss u guys..
bile nak kluar?
this wk?
|10:37 PM|
my dad underwent surgery yesterday..
he was diagnosed with biles and severe anaemia..
he was warded for a wk in sgh..
he went thru blood transfusion 5 times..
im so worried abt him..
i need to work..
i dun wanna rely on him too much..
he worked so hard for the family..
i pray that my dad will heal..
i pray that he will be in the best of health..
i dun care abt other things now..
family r important..
thanks to my girlfrens n azan..
they r always there 4 me..
anyway i miss j, noni, mar n sanah alot..
sudah lama takda jumpa lah..
hope to meet u all..
we have to wait for mar i guessed..
people changed..
drastically..
some bear grudges..
let them be..
cos thay won't noe wat is in ur heart..
n now u noe who r really frens n who r really foes..
i miss miss miss my girl frens..
n to darling azan..
thanks for being there for me..
i
love
you..
|3:37 AM|
thanks to this girl for letting me using her comp..
thanks bestie..
anyway, to j..
pls get well soon!
okie!
minum dettol 10 litres k..
haha.. 
hope u can smile like this again..
|8:00 AM|
i went to watched step up last monday with j,mar,sanah n noni.. this is how i wrapped the present for him! this is my handsome nephew..photocopied from my brother. my youngest sister.. badak berendam.. my luvly mdm sakya, oops my mum! with nazreen my sis.. my naked siblings..Sharina,nazreen(look at her wallet) n shafiq..
n not to forget my darlin joined in too..
arrgh! channing tatum is so handsome..
cair seh..
betul..
i like the way he danced..
the team building was fun..
althou the instructor was quite unfriendly..
ms tang was famous n pretty today..
n everyone wanted to take pics with her..
haha..
exams in 5 more days..
arrgh!
i hate attachments!
sucks!
tiring!
bersabar saniah..
haha..
anyway, this is how we looked like with helmets..
this is my handsome daddy with my handsome nephew. see the similarities? haha..
the pics we took just now..meditating cos the class was very noisy. haha..mcm faham!
|7:16 AM|