Stand By Me

a day wif my dear azan

2007-03-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

we watched this today..
actually really got nothing to do.
went to sch to take the gd progress award cheque.
its the best b'day present ever!
anyway, im hapi to spend every moment wif azan.
i love u dear..

i've been spending most of the wkends wif buk n sara..
n its great to spend the time wif them.
even its after work, they dun mind spending the time wif me.
thanks a million guys..
i will miss u both.
futhermore, you, sara going to start work in nuh soon, this coming mon.
arrgh!
so faST!
anyway,
thx again for all the happy moments..
n to yantie too!

buk wrote smthing sweet for me on his blog.
but y one of the name appeared?
i just dun like her!
ok,here it is..
1.gonna miss my frens..girlfrens tht i actualli nvr bond like this before..saniah n sara have reali make an impact in my 2 yrs life in nursing..
2.sara and saniah..im gonna miss u guys..son we're gona part..but tht doesnt mean im gona forget u guys..we'll still keep in contact..
3.HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANIAH!!!

n this is from sara:
1.anyways to my girlfriend,Saniah binte Abdul Jalil.Happy 20th birthday.i love you babe.we'll have a post-birthday celebration ok?

2.anw, met up with buk and saniah.now its just down to the three of us laa.honestly, i was fucking disappointed but theres nothing i can do.though 3 of us were very tired but we still cntinue walking ard.somehow, i feel so much for them.and i know that i'm gonna miss saniah's irritating lame anticsand im gonna miss for the way he treat us.so as i was abt to sleep last night.i received a msg from saniah.it was a short one.but it really touch my heart.and it really makes my day.

3.tell me, how can you not smile after you read this msg.furthermore, you had a very tiring at work .duncha feel that your friendship is so appreciated.haha.
..................................
so sweet rite..
how can i resist from missing both of them..
it doesn't matter how long u noe each other,
but how often u r always there for ur fren..

so sori guys im not going for prom tmr..
enjoy ur day ok!

HAPI BIRTHDAY TO ME

2007-03-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

HAPI BIRTHDAY TO ME..
but i felt so sad today.
y must the last day happened on my b'day.
its the last day of attachment.
i brokedown when iskandar started to hug everybody.
all of us cried.
its so hard for me to leave them.
n im still sad when i tink of it.
we r so close,
like one big family.
i dun want to be apart from them.
its so hard to get ward mates like them.
united, always give in to each other n very helpful.
i'll miss every each of them.
they r so special to me..
i love u guys..
pls keep in touch..
fiezah
iskandar
farhanah
ain
kak nadiyah
saraswathi
navin
liyana
aishah
miri
peiying
dini
kenneth
zhi yuan

anyway, its hard for me to leave the patients in imh.
furthermore we r the 1st grp of students to go to ward 60.
the patients r great.
feel sad for them..

i received bodyshop perfume from my ward mates.
thnks people.
u guys always make me smile.
full of surprises.
i'll always remember the fun n laughter we had together especially in imh.
everyday without fail, we had fun, laughing n cherish every last moments working together..
haiz..
i'll cry if i say more..

so..hapi 18th b'day to me..
haha
im in denial!
hope that i'll b the happiest person in the world by my loved ones.
hope i'll get my dream job soon.
n i hope i can make other people happy too.
thanks to all my frens for the b'day wishes..

pei ying n miri is not in these picture.
n this is actually our last yr photo taken with ms lam during the outings.

i'll miss u guys..
n i'll keep u people in my HEART!

i apologized

2007-02-09T04:38:00.000-08:00

i knew it..
i just read.
n ya, it hurts.
i noe its her blog n she has the rights to write dat.
eventhou it may seems small n not really visible.
but the words made me sad.
i admit i made a mistake.
but at dat point of time i just need somebody to talk.
so its difficult for me to horray2 on dat day.
but its ok.
things had happened.
n even it seems like normal, i can sense the changes.
i dun mind.
i'll just swallow it.
i mean im always there for her, but if she thinks dat im no longer important in her life just bcos of dat incident then its still fine.
i dunno.
just feel sad.
but im not angry.
i'm sorry..

azan brought me to ramen 10 last saturday.
still keep in contact but we r still frens.
will update abt it again..cos...i dunno the answer yet.

attachment..
great..
my workmates are all the best people.
eventhou our lecturer always membebel n very petty.
we'r still strong.
n i luv dem alot!

n ya i just felt like putting pics..

yo..

2007-01-28T04:47:00.000-08:00

i miss him..
but i do not want to get back bcz people force me too.
im ok.
still surviving.
still bathe.
haha.
i dun noe y im so stubborn.
still refused to accept him.
i've my own reason actually.
but even if i regret it, it had happened.
but azan will always b on my mind..

u seems very familiar.
but where did we met?
n i've wandering..
nvm lah, hu ever u r..

nite duty..
tiring.
but FUN!
Ain, Navin n amazingly Dini made my nite duty a fun one.
we talked abt almost everything.
the secrets n gossips.
Then Navin n Dini looked pale after they did last office at 3am.
the staff were very understanding xcept for dat noisy fella.
4 of us went for break together.
how fun..!
like having party.
pringles lying arnd.
we ate bday cake in the middle of the nite.
we had so much fun.
to ain..
dun worry bout wat had happened.
everything will be just fine.

i wish i had lots of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!
ya money.
i wanna go shopping.
im so stressed.
hate attachment.
this is the part that i feel like quitting.
n im stupid if i did.
last lap already.
i dun tink i can qualify to b a nurse.
ntahlah
jadi potter lah..

i can't wait for prisonbreak..
wentworth miller.
omg..
so cute..
make me melt
so cair.
can't wait for season 2..

anw, this is embarrasing.
i semangat wish haikal hapi belated bday.
pdhal bday dia next mth..
i thot jan..
alamak..
sorilah cuzin.
haha..

i'm back..

2007-01-21T22:37:00.000-08:00

i miss updating my blog..
so many things had happened..

Azan n me..
we broke up.
2 wks already.
its not his fault.
its mine.
but he said it first.
lets break up.
i dun blame him nor i hate him.
but i just dun wanna get back.
maybe bcos i wanna have freedom.
but dats not the main reason.
but ask any couple.
for almost 5 yrs u had been together,
the feelings of bored will come.
not that i feel bored when im wif him.
but i feel suffocated.
no time for myself.
imagine i spent most of my teenage life with him.
tii now i mean lately.
but we r still v.gd frens.
just went out last sat.
n he asked for patch up for the 3rd time.
my answer?
still the same.
no.
i dun wanna get back to him bcos of sympathy or pressure.
i wanna love him like i use to.
but i cried every nite thinkin of it.
when will it end.
will i get back to him.
or will i get another guy who is as gd as him.
i dunno.
our parents dun noe bout it.
but my mum sense the difference.
she asked its been a long time azan has not call my hs.
i noe he's a gd guy.
but i've my personal reason of not gg back wif him.
its too late too regret bout it cos it has happened.
n i do not want to do it anymore unless the rite day comes.
omg..
i just feel like crying now.
me leaving him.
people said im stupid.
but how bout my feelings.
but having wonderful memories wif him,
its difficult for me to forget him in just a snap!

anw, thanks to my gf-s n haikal for their advice.
thanks to iskandar the bengkok for his advice too,
eventhou he kept asking "dah patch" whenever he see my face.
thanks to another guy fren..
he too..
like bengkok always asking me the same Qn..
susah org lelaki ni.
haha..

ok..throw away the sadness.
n guess wat la.
faizal the idiot
psychotic
crazy
stalker
came back..
omg n wat the fuck.
he came back.
i thot he's dead!
he called my hs.
n amazingly he still remember the number.
n i shouted at him once i noe its him n hang up.
he called again the day after at nite n another day my mum said a guy called asking for me..
im still wondering hu is he.
till now.
the last time he called me was the 1st spore idol final results.
n now like almost 3 years.
n he said im his gf!
since when lah dey.
i dun even noe u.
n wat u ecpect me to be a gf of a complete stranger.
self proclaimed idiot.
i hope he will stop doing all these.
coz i can't stand it.

its my first nite duty today..
can't wait..
excited.
i wonder how it will be.
must take a nap later.

i cant wait for prisonbreak this thursday.
just addicted to it.

n to my girlfrens..
i miss u guys..
bile nak kluar?
this wk?

i miss my girlfrens..

2006-12-22T03:37:00.000-08:00

my dad underwent surgery yesterday..
he was diagnosed with biles and severe anaemia..
he was warded for a wk in sgh..
he went thru blood transfusion 5 times..
im so worried abt him..
i need to work..
i dun wanna rely on him too much..
he worked so hard for the family..
i pray that my dad will heal..
i pray that he will be in the best of health..
i dun care abt other things now..
family r important..
thanks to my girlfrens n azan..
they r always there 4 me..

anyway i miss j, noni, mar n sanah alot..
sudah lama takda jumpa lah..
hope to meet u all..
we have to wait for mar i guessed..

people changed..
drastically..
some bear grudges..
let them be..
cos thay won't noe wat is in ur heart..
n now u noe who r really frens n who r really foes..

i miss miss miss my girl frens..
n to darling azan..
thanks for being there for me..
i
love
you..

i forgot..

2006-12-06T08:00:00.000-08:00

thanks to this girl for letting me using her comp..
thanks bestie..
anyway, to j..
pls get well soon!
okie!
minum dettol 10 litres k..
haha..
hope u can smile like this again..

i love team building..

2006-12-06T07:16:00.000-08:00

i went to watched step up last monday with j,mar,sanah n noni..
n not to forget my darlin joined in too..
arrgh! channing tatum is so handsome..
cair seh..
betul..
i like the way he danced..

the team building was fun..
althou the instructor was quite unfriendly..
ms tang was famous n pretty today..
n everyone wanted to take pics with her..
haha..
exams in 5 more days..
arrgh!
i hate attachments!
sucks!
tiring!
bersabar saniah..
haha..
anyway, this is how we looked like with helmets..

this is how i wrapped the present for him!

this is my handsome nephew..photocopied from my brother.

my youngest sister.. badak berendam..

my luvly mdm sakya, oops my mum! with nazreen my sis..

this is my handsome daddy with my handsome nephew. see the similarities? haha..

my naked siblings..Sharina,nazreen(look at her wallet) n shafiq..

pretty miss tang..celebrity foa a day!

the pics we took just now..meditating cos the class was very noisy. haha..mcm faham!

what i did on saturday..

2006-12-02T06:49:00.000-08:00

met j and haikal..
we went to marina sq..
cos j wanna get a shirt..
so finally bought a esprit shirt..
we took train today cos i wanna walk wif j n haikal..
so he parked his bike at my house..
we reached home at 12pm..
den ride his bike just to go 7-11..
haha..

hmmmmmm...

2006-12-01T05:13:00.000-08:00

i'm at the new macdonalds at amkgardens..
its a nice place..
going to east coast later wif azan n his frens..
hmmm.. i'll be behind him, of course..
he ride his bike..
ok today was ok..
at least he rode at 80km/h not 50km/h..
kalau tak bila nak sampai..
im wif my girlfrens..
mar, noni, j n sanah..
mar went for religious cla already while sanah went back home..
anyway...
to my girlfrens..
i love u all always..
its so difficult to find such a great fren like u people..
really..
i just wish dat i can bring u all everywhere i go..
i love u peeps..
from the bottom of my heart..
muacks!

mar's chalet

2006-11-19T18:22:00.000-08:00

i was supposed to update this like long, l0ng time ago..
Did BS project with sara,yanti,buk,syanaz n kalai at national library.
we ended early..

i met j n sanah at orchard to buy Azan's present.
actually wanted to go for TImberland's sale.
but the clothes r not eye-catching.
so finally i bought a Topman shirt for him..

Went to mar's chalet after dat..
it was late..
met noni first at ct hall..
i really enjoy the day..
althou we were busy helping mar's mum to cook.
haha..
still remembered,
mar was being roasted..
j talking to rick inside the toilet..
i carried noni..
sanah was enjoying herself by watching our nonsense..
thanks to mar's family..
they love us..
we knew that..
haha..
i felt like not going home dat day..
cos we went home at 3am..
n it was raining..
the weather was superb..
n i dun feel nice leaving mar alone after dat..
but she enjoyed sleeping on the single-attached bed..
tak fair..
haha..

SWEET NYE..............

2006-11-14T22:52:00.000-08:00

Nak tahu something tak..
Azan wrote this to me..

S-ayang
A-abang
N-ak
I-sterikan
A-yang
H-ari ni..

i noe its lame n too mushy n ngade2 lah..
but its a surprise for bcos we always quarrell..
n finally he came out wif something..
suke nye aku!!!!!!!!!
i miss him now..

I'm Excited for Azan's Bday..

2006-11-13T17:29:00.000-08:00

i do not know what i shud buy for him..
his birthday:25.11.2006
n its just next week!
omg..omg..
i thot of going for a cable car ride..
then maybe we dine in at swensen's..
how about present?
im not sure..
i wanna but clothes for him but u noelah he's very fussy..
he dislike wearing like mats..
but i want him to get updated with clothes..

people...
pls..pls..pls
give me some ideas..
now!

or shud i buy him a shirt from topman..

ok ok just get me flowing with lots n lots of ideas..

Thanks Nurhuda Ramlee

2006-11-13T16:07:00.000-08:00

huda..i did write a blog 4u..
to thank u..
but i wonder y its not publish..
betul aku tak tipu..
anw, THANKS A MILLION for changing my blogskin..
aku tgh ade lesson tau huda..
cikgu nampak aku kena pancung!
haha..huda2, dah dig telinga kau?

Thank God its Friday..

2006-11-12T04:42:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY 10.11.2006

I've been waiting for friday bcos sch is so tiring..n its a day to meet my frens.
I was late bcos my childhood fren Kamaliah came..
She went melawat, will tell the story below..
i had a small misunderstanding wif azan..
i was already late den i had to wait for him at the mrt..
i do not want the others to wait for me u c..
so he was late n i got angry..
i mean he shud noe dat his journey took quite long den he shud leave early..
then we quarrelled..
i actually blurt out a word of vulgarity to him..
bcos he got on my nerve..
till we sat at banquet, he still refused to talk..
n i cried, in front of my girls..
it was embarrasing..
i tried to held back my tears but i can't..
i was sad..
already in sch i felt so lonely n yet dis happened..
but things was settled bcos i've MAGIC POWER!
HAHAHHAHAHA..
Azan said im lucky to have him..
cos i think if it was other guy, he surely would have leave me..
i guess its true cos Azan is very patient..
althou i scolded him or throw tantrums on him..
he's still there for me..
n I LOVE HIM MORE now..
betul..

To my girls..
I had....................a great time wif u pple.
thanks for spending the time together..
the honey chicken set was nice..
mcm ayam percik..
will comeback n eat again..
i just wish we can turn back time to our sec sch life..
i wish my girls r there to accompany me at sch..
cos i dunno y i felt so lonely..

a fren of mine passed away..
not really a fren but i noe her..
it was in the newsppr on friday..
she's only 19..
it was a shocking one..
i feel sad for her althou we dun really noe each other..
cos we always picked a fight during pri sch..
she's from mfps..
hope she rest in peace..
Al-Fatehah..

i woke up heard this motor sound..
it was my fridge..
give way..
alamak..
org dtg takde ice..
so leceh..
bought a new one..
coming on tues..
excited for a new fridge..haha!

_____________________________________________________________

SATURDAY 11.11.2006

i went to the airport wif my luvly luvly boyfren..
bila part tak gaduh luvly ler..
went there by bus..
it was so cooling..
we wnt BK..
wanted to go Popeye's but it was packed..
it was a luvly one..
i dunno..
maybe bcos we always quarrelled n finally had a great one..
its so nice when u see the planes, wif him by ur side..
ok dah, too mushy already..
nanti kena kutuk..

he went to my house after dat..
prepared for him nasi n lauk sambal udang..
mcm husband n wife..
n he went home aftr dat...
how i wish we r already married but he said he wants to get a stable job..
its too long for me..
i love u dear..

toilet tandas

2006-11-08T22:16:00.000-08:00

TUESDAY 7.11.2006

Sara n yantie went to the toilet before me..
i went later cos i didn't have the urge at first..
so i went in to the toilet..
yantie was standing outside the toilet..
nobody was inside when i went in..
i went to this cubicle..
but the door was closed..
i heard splashing of water..
so i pushed the door..
n............HAHAHAHAHAHA!
i saw sara squatting down, urinating..
ALAMAK!
SARA PLS AH PLS AH..
make sure u locked the door properly before u condifently(confident) void!
HAHAHAHAHAHA
N she made me laugh the whole day when i recall it..
but it was a gd experienced too see sara's ass..
hahahaha..

weird

2006-11-08T21:39:00.000-08:00

THURSDAY 9.11.2006

sometimes i tink
wat r friends for actually?
sometimes i feel they dun need me
bcos they neglect me
but y
do i've to follow wat they do or say
just to b part of them
i've my rights also
i feel lonely
im not asking for sympathy
but i just feel outcast
its up to them
i'll just keep quiet..

anyway..i can't wait to go vivocity tmr..
enjoy the day wif my girls.
i saw has wif her brother yesterday..
we just waved at each other..
i wish we could b together like last time..
i noe it still hurts if i think abt it..
but.........(lost of words)

went to watch soccer match yesterday..
at ite balestier..
after my THEORY DRIVING LICENSE..
hahahahaha
hmmm...
sara played well..
our school won.
n it was so hot till i get tanned..
we went novena after that..
ate kfc wif ili, cha2, huda, yantie n sara..

a stupid jalan raya..

2006-11-05T20:19:00.000-08:00

Saturday 4/11/06

its a stupid cupid disastrous jln raye..
cupid seh..

i wonder y seh.. dat idiotic guy.
kalau rumah besar ade kereta pun buat ape..
but budi bahase hancur..
tak tahu sambut tetamu..
but he tried hard to serve us..
eventhou his cheese cake was nice tapi hati ini tetap ingin memarahi mu..

n dats not all.
y u have to sms my girl friends n scolded them.
childish.
pas tu bila aku msg kau, kau ckp kau dah drop the subject..
den wat, u said kalau aku dak kalah step kalah sua..
bodoh.
den kau ckp aku bodoh nak gaduh2 dgn kau.
kau ah bodoh sbab start dulu.
kena bakar time keje pun bagus..

n it got nothin to do wif non-mf
u guys r always like dat.
kau dah tahu kita takde transport, yg kau bodoh gi bwk kereta asal.
if we didn't brought our bf along also its still the same.
step kereta dia limousine je leh muat semua org.
nak convinience tapi not for everybody..
hidup nak senang je.
n the obvious part was at noni's hs ah..
like 2 separated grps.
satu sibuk amik gambar kat luar, tak tahu ajak org.
abih kita mcm bdk bodoh tak tahu nak buat ape.
at i wonder y ah the 2 girls also were joining them n neglecting us..
i mean wat did we do?

n si bodoh cd man tu.
dah tahu kita takde transport nak expect kita tahu where he stay.
ape salahnye kau tunggu luar n find us.
kalau kau penat kita lagi penat..
ni dah kena force n call baru nak kluar cari kita.
n den the most hurting part u said was
''korg ramai sgt ah..kate bdk mayflower je pergi'
mcm sial!

nasib baik ah aku dah sampai umah baru aku dapat tahu kau ckp mcm gitu..
kalau tak memang dah panas telinga kau.

anw..hidup jgn sombong sgt eh..
mak bapak kau yg kaya..
bkn kau..
n sebelum nak mengate org blajar dulu mcm mane nak ckp Crythsanthemum..
n pls blajar mcm mane nak berbudi bahase dulu eh..
blajar mcm mane nak respect org..
blajar mcm mane nak control mulut,nak ckp at least beralas eh..
eh..eh..eh..

i only enjyed my day wif the other 3 couples..
thanks people for the fun we had during bus rides,
e jokes we shared..
haha..
at least
we had fun!

Down N Hurt

2006-10-19T00:23:00.000-07:00

went to buka with sara, j n noraini yesterday at simpang Bedok. The mee hong kong i ate really taste sucks! waste my penny earn..we had a wonderful time.Saw liyana, manja n others too..

My relationship sucks nowadays..
its either him or me who will create problem.
we can be happy for a moment but its only a while..
i dunno..he said i spend more time with my frens..
i finished sch late yesterday, so i decided to buka outside n i dun need to rush..
i cried yesterday..
if i collect all my tears i think it will be like 10 pails?
too exaggerating?
oklah a pail?
half a pail?
ok still exaggerating..?
den it would be a jug..
oklah2 half a cup..........

wat do i have to do?
actually i gave up already..
i can be very patient but there's a limit..
i tried my best..
i controlled my temper, my moods..
but still im getting this..
i tried spending my precious time with him..
but we will end up quarelling..
i hate it..
stress seh..
lama2 i can do the psychiatric nursing on myself..
i'm having headaches n stomach flu(i tink)..
n dat uneasy feeling on my stomach is really irritating..

Should i break up?!
i'm so pissed off..
i noe its a long relationship between me n him..
but wats the use of it when im not happy..
im sad n i miss him..
but i can't tolerate anymore..

i think u all will c me in icu soon..
diagnosed with poisoning..
of drinking clorox+dynamo+1kg sugar+1kg prunes(konon2 sweet n sour taste ah tu) like real!

nolah..i won't be doing dat.
at most pun i hang myself upside down..
oklah gtg..
slmt berbuka soon..

i'm sick..

2006-10-17T21:17:00.000-07:00

TUESDAY 17/10/2006

I had fever, flu..n my body ached terribly..i woke up for sahur. Confidently thot of fasting eventhou i'm sick..i slept from morning till the afternoon,slept again till evening..when u're at home, u really feel the time passed very fast. i missed the lessons yesterday. I didn't see a doctor. Was too weak too crawl. N my little sister were so cute. She went to me n said "adhe gohg royiyerui yuyuyreu"..N dat could put a smile on my face.

I talked to my brother on the phone..Ya i miss him alot..Hope that he'll be back on Raya..

Anyway Buk told me about one of our classmate flirting with a girl..But he already has a girlfriend. N i dun tink his gf knew abt it..he may look innocent but actually not. He dun even know the girl but yet he asked the girl to call him..so desperate for what!

Its Monday BuLUES..

2006-10-15T21:17:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY..14.10.2006

i went to vivocity wif my darling dat day..its big n there were alot of people..like ants. I felt so suffocated n decided to leave the place. I met YANTI at bedok cos she said she buka alone..Had mee soto(yanti belanje tau)..n the taste deteoriate..i wonder y the mee soto taste terrible,its not like last time when i used to work there..FYI, dats my sec fren's uncle shop..

After buka, i met j n noraini at geylang..while waiting, azan let out all his problems n feelings to me..mcm romantic lah tu konon diri tepi longkang at paya lebar mrt. Saw kak nur passby with her husband. Then she called my hp cos i called her after she didn't hear me calling her..N SHE MADE ME LAUGHED.haha..it was abt the previous blog..dun eat mee rebus lah kak nur.. mkn roti ke..haha..

While jln2 wif noraini,j n my bf..terserempak dgn Alfiyan. He got a new girlfren..bcos i saw him with a different girl at esplanade during the baybeats. n that was fast! Then i saw iskandar si bengkok with his soccer frens..We went home abt 11. Took taxi home..was quite disappointed wif azan cos he didn't go home wif us but he took the train instead. But was fine with it..

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Sunday 15.10.2006

I woke up late..went out to Sultan Mosque with my family..My mum bought alot of kuih. She won't make any this yr BCOS my younger sister will be busy making her kuih also..she is so so so active dat i only can look after her for half an hour..n yesterday morning she put my bra in front of the main door..She will always have her own 'project' to do. I saw Alias Kadir..n the sight of him made me laughed. tak baik saniah..

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MONDAY 16.10.2006

i looked at the haze this morning..its scary. i thot the blurred vision was due to my contact lens.I blinked n blinked..realising after 30s staring out of the window that it was actually the haze..i ran to my mother, only to ask her to look at the haze..n she just said "i know"..i think she malas nak layan cos i worry too much..God! i feel so heavy going out of the house. I dun wanna get sick..The haze gets more terrible rather than improving..The news r fake..Im in sch now..blogging. sara is front of me. buk n yanti the other side..i think i'll b a loner without them in sch..we always have something to joke abt..im going for psychiatric lecture soon..wish me not to sleep in there..
its azan first day of sch today..can see him in sch now but the sad thing is we can't go home togethr like last time cos he shifted hs..

ok den..bye!

What Shud The Title Be?

2006-10-14T00:48:00.000-07:00

Haha..i have no idea wat to put on the title..so dats the best one..

Anyway..i ha a great time last wed 11/10/06 with j, noraini, sara n buk after sch..we buka-ed(again!haha) at bedok corner together.actually its supposed to be 4 of us dat is yantie+buk+sara+me but yantie was tired..we ate ikan pari for side dishes n we laughed like nobody's biz..den went home by train n sara stained her dress at tanah merah..so we cleaned up the mess n she hooray2 w/o the dress inside the toilet..luckily, nobody see.. haha!

Although its Ramahan now, i see alot of student nurses eating in sch n some were even from my class. I think their face were made of cement..OOPS! I mean if u wanna eat at least find a place dat has nobody dat r fasting. N its only the nurses who r in sch now, not yet the other courses! Im just writing out my views so kalau sesiapa yg terasa minta maaf ler..cos WHO ASK U ALL TO EAT IN PUBLIC! $*&@*&($@(*&@! ( ntah ape language tu?)

Yesterday, friday the 13th..scary..had a talk. actually able to go home at 1 but the stupid talk was till 3..its stupid except for the abortion thing. we sat at the mlt n e 5 anak dara pingitan sat behind us. N the girl who sat behind me is so irritating! she kept on kicking my chair. i dunno whether she did dat intentionally. n if u did dat wif a purpose u'll get it back..its not twice dat she did dat. its alot of times.i mean if u dun like me u can tell me straight to my face. idiot!

im suppose to meet sara today to buka together wif zul n my bf but i tink she got some problems..anyway, im going out wif azan now.. will blog again.. n hope to meet my sec frens again..

He Makes Me Smile Again

2006-10-08T02:07:00.000-07:00

Ok..im going to buka wif my baby soon..Im so glad he's alright now.
I noe he will forget bout everything cos he loves me alot..
n dats the reason y i'm faithful to him..

Anyway, i got excited cos i put on mascara after like so many mths i did not put it on.. I noe it may sounds funny n merepek tu u all but i'm just glad..HAHA. Saniah giler.. Little things also can make me happy.

My brother got b'day presents from his frens yesterday. They gave him a Converse shoe..(dunno wat is the proper name for the shoe)chocolates n baju..I think i'm going to find him a better present cos i only gave him $5. haha. N Feeraz kepo, he asked my brother wat i gave him. He made fun of it n he said he also can give like dat..Ckp je pandai.

The haze was scary yesterday night n i kept on looking out of the window wishing dat it will go away..It was so thick dat i can't see the buildings at Bishan.. i dun wanna get sick bcos of it cos i noe im not always at home. Blamed the farmers for being self-centred.

Im going off soon..i love Azan..God, pls save our relationship. I can't imagine myself without him by my side even if he make me mad..N to all my dear MFSS friends..PLS MEET UP MORE OFTEN OK.. AT LEAST ONCE EVERY TWO MONTHS? SO THAT WE ALL CAN CATCH UP ON EACH OTHER'S LIFE..I REALLYx10 ENJOY MYSELF DAT DAY WIF U ALL..

I LURVE MY SEC SCH FRENS

2006-10-07T05:50:00.002-07:00

Friday..6th of oct 2006

I quarreled wif azan again n he said we've got nothing to do wif each other..actually i plan to catch a movei wif him..but he refused. he said its no use if we go out just to watch a movie dat after dat i meet my sec sch frens. But the thing is, i've already promised them n they told me like last wk already. So i was in guilt. I tried to pujuk him but he's still sulk..so finally i just ignore n went out at 4+ n meet my frens..

i met j, mar, noraini n hakeem 1st at lucky plaza..jln2 n den meet the others at far east..
there were nadhirah, nashrun, rahman,taufiq,hafiz,sanah, rose n hasanah came late..
So we settled down at Sakura at640pm cos dat irritating lalatz like 1 mth tak mkn..before that i saw kak julie wif the wife..Bila lah dia nak ade baby?
then while waiting for the food skali rozzalina ramli, wife kpd jai lah ade tapi dia tak masuk..haha! we talked on the phone abt her the day before during conference..my girls u shud noe!
i ate chicken fried rice tapi tak habis..Anyway thanks to has, at last dpt rase ice-cream moon cake dari swensen's..Dpt pahala si Hasanah..

Next we all went to geylang..abih decide nak naik taxi ke tak n noraini sempat amik gambar dgn darling-apek dia.. serrram eh! nashrun also. He put his arm around the apek n amik gambar some more..But the uncle was nice! Nasib baik dia tak SEVEN korg..N at last naik mrt jugak..sebab mcm paham gi blakang wisma, waited for taxis but the wheels of the taxi pun tak nampak..

WE finally reached geylang n met my dearie-irritating fren, sape lagi kalau bkn Mr AAAouuuusss eh salah Feeraz..his mum ade shop at the bazaar. i'm going to buy a selendang at his shop if i go geylang again..InsyaAllah! yelah support member lah..

Then we lepakz at Ali's cafe(if im not wrong).. tgh ddk2 lepak then i saw this very familiar looking guy..its Ipan! gosh..its been a long time since i met him in sch..n to be honest he's damn gd-looking now..i do not noe wat happen to him. cos he went MIA cos i think i said we can b frens..im actually disappointed. Disappointed bcos we had a gd friendship n i can relate things to him but i dunno..im puzzled too on y he did this..
forget about it, then i saw my big teddy bear cuzzin wif his gf, kak syafirah. i just waved at them..

Lepas to has bingit cos ade dragqueen ni ddk sebelah dia..3 of them. N ya they were bitchy! Skali fauzi laili n suzhaire sumairi members dorg lah..Serrram eh. n fauzi is cute. suzhairhe charming..i like to look at him..saw him twice already. Rumours said dat fauzi broke up wif his gf already..maybe yes.. coz i saw him twice before this wif khairul anwar, he brought his gf along.. but now takde. Hanye Allah dan fauzi laili n the gf je yg tahu. Saniah mcm betul! but the gf very pretty..

anyway, its was fun lepak-ing(haha!) at the cafe cos i sat beside Feeraz yg tak habis2 mengacau. He dared me to drink teh sarbat also known as teh halia..GILA KAPE! at last he drank it..hahahaha!

n we finally went home at12! hahaha..best lepak mlm2..took a taxi n noni's uncle fetch us by taxi. 5 of us+driver..haha! sent taufiq home 1st den j n has..noni ajak slpover at her house so i did after asking for permission..Im stressed cos im still thinking bout wat to do wif my boyfriend..i still loves him though..

SATURDAY 7/10/2006

I gave my brother cash cos it was his bday yesterday! went to send my baju kurung at my aunt's house at hougang wif my younger sister..
rent Gubra cd (finally)..N bought kfc for buka..
i just got a msg from azan..have not yet reply.. ok c u guys some other days..

story of me for the past few days

2006-10-04T23:28:00.000-07:00

HELLO! Im super excited sbab baru start blog..mcm jakun gitukan..

anyway, di sebalik jakun ku ini, i feel sad cos my brother went overseas to work for a yr! like something just hempap on me. i sent him off to the airport on 29sept 06, the last day of attachment whr actually i had simulation on dat day.. i cried like a baby n i hugged him twice. otw to sch aft he left at 745, i cried in the bus. the passengers might b thinking is she a nurse or from imh. but i just dun care..but going to sims was boring but having my attachment grp frens was fun especially dat clown iskandar..

ok, next story.. yesterday which was wed, oct the 4th.. went out n makan at swensen's wif my attachment frens n ms lam. i was late bcos had to follow my mum..den i reached home at 545pm n supposed to meet the others at Junction8 at 6PM! i was rushing to take the bus n Navin called.
"Saniah! where r u?!"
"i'm on my way lah"
"faster lah, everbody is waiting 4u! we can't go in unless everybody is here"
Thanks to Navin for the act where actually they wanna play a trick on me. N i rushed for nothing..
Dats not all...When i reached i walked straight to the breadtalk but saw no one.. N very confidently i went to Swensen's but batang gigi dorg pun tak nampak. I called is n again..
"is, where r u all?"
"at breadtalk lah"
"but i didnt c u all"
is:"u at which breadtalk"
"kat junction 8"
is:"junction 8? we all at nortpoint"
"i thot u all said at Junction 8"
is:"no at northpoint, u come now."

N dat time i feel like giving myself a slap. N i think they saw my tired n pathetic face n i was like going ahead to take a cab when is said..

"Nolah we all at coffee bean lah.."
I turned n saw all the idiots laughing at me.. Thanks to them i had an embarrasing-day-to-remember..

I ate the breaded chicken,kalamari n fried mushrooms..we surprised Ms lam wif a cake cos her bday is today..she was very happy n Surprised! I think the swensen's manager did a "noise-service-charged" on us cos we're the most noisiest swensen's customer had ever had. N we shout n laughed like nobody's business. We sang the bday song until i think the whole Junction 8 thot Swensen's held a concert. Ms Lam daughter Ashley is so cute n she wave like she never wave her hands before. Nadiyah brought Danial along too..Ms Lam wanted to contribute $100 but we said its a treat from us. She gave us the $ and we dun noe wat to do with it. Finally lepak at coffee bean n again is told us a ghost story..N i actually walked a big round to go home n afraid to walk alone at the void deck.

Azan was angry cos i reached home late at only11pm! Even my mum didn't ask me Qn. i Just dun understand my bf. i need freedom too ok. tried to call him but he was asleep i think. After talking on the phone wif Shanker's twins.. i went to sleep!